I've long accepted the truth.
I've moved on.
From that horrific and dreadful day you left me in the middle of the storm, I've moved on. I've come a long way. I've never been better.
Moving on from day one wasn't a walk in the park.
I crawled.
You should have seen me. You would have been proud of what you've done.
I crawled.
You should have seen me. You would have been proud of what you've done.
Every day, I would drag myself. I'd get up heavily, act as normally as I could. I would plaster a smile on my face, and pretend everything's alright while I was dying inside.
I was bleeding non-stop. You cut me deep.
I was bleeding non-stop. You cut me deep.
I've picked up the pieces, no thanks to you.
I don't know where I was getting all those superhuman strength that got me to where I am today. Away from you and your memory, away from your lies and your bullshit.
It's been a long time since I've stopped waiting for an apology, or a proper explanation which I so deserve.
I've long stopped hoping for a change. I've long accepted the truth. It wasn't easy. I can't even...
But that's not important anymore. How I got here, how I've moved on, how I got over it...it doesn't matter.
One day I woke up, and the pain is gone. The hurting just stopped.
So did my waiting. So did my hoping.
One day I woke up, and the pain is gone. The hurting just stopped.
So did my waiting. So did my hoping.
I've moved on. I've reduced you into nothing but a blur.
I built a wall between you and my today; you're not allowed to go past it.
You can't, in any way, come near my present. Because I've moved on.
So, stop asking how I'm doing.
You don't deserve to know.
You don't deserve to know.
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ReplyDeleteThank you soooo much for writing this! You have no idea how much I NEEDED to read this today!
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ReplyDeleteand what you said about the pain...that's exactly what happened to me: I woke up one day and the paid was gone..just like that. I was so down for so many kicks, that each day I was still down waiting to get the coup de grace..but the other thing happened..everything disappeared...
Moving on is what we should go. Great to hear you have done that.
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